Midnight musings..

I'm not entirely sure what the purpose of this blog will be.. I imagine there will be an element to where I try and work out 'life'. Figure out the meaning and purpose of it, but more so, just how to live it in a way that not only leaves me fulfilled but plays a part in a bigger picture.

I have a faith. A faith that is very real to me. I cannot separate it from everything else of who I am. It permeates my thinking, my understanding, my expectations, my hopes, my dreams, my daily activity, my family, the list goes on.. Because it is so a part of who I am I cannot leave it out. If it makes you uncomfortable please remember that at any point you have full ability and right to stop reading. It's not my intention to offend anyone with my 'preaching' but I cannot leave it out of the conversation, when to be honest, a large proportion of the time, fitting my world and my faith together is my conversation.

So with the disclaimer out of the way..

It's very late. I've just been to hang out with a few of my favourite people while we question and discuss what it would be like to live in freedom from the things that hold us back. What would we do? Where would we go?

I guess that's not really how the conversation went.. I think the reality was, so many people were sitting in the room thinking about what it is that they aren't free from. The things that they would like to be free from. The thing that is sucking the life out of them. The first thing that came into their mind of a life controlling issue. I think it's probably the place it needed to start. But I'm sure that it isn't the place it needs to stop.

I would love to have some kind of spiritual/emotional/mental camera that takes a snapshot in time of where all these people are at with their unique challenges and struggles and look at it in a few years time and see where they have gone with it. I'm sure if we had all the details it would tell a fascinating story:

For some the story would be great victory. Maybe even a happy ending at the end of a long hard slog. For others maybe the story gets a lot worse before it gets any better. For another maybe the story takes sharp twists and turns as they discover the problems aren't really what they appeared to be in the first instance. Maybe for some the issue never really gets resolved no matter how much they try. As sad as the last one would be to experience I believe any of the above results is better than the alternative: nothing happens and nothing changes.

To live in the same... stuck... rut....

I don't think as people we ever experience total freedom. I do believe though we get to have a taste of it from time to time. To remind us how worthwhile it is to pursue. I think of moments when I really felt secure. When I had no inhibitions. No little voice that told me 'no' or 'dont' or 'stop'. It may not always last but it's those moments that I later miss and reminisce about and therefore pursue again at any cost.

Blogging aye..

The first post is often the only so it better be good

So... the purpose of a blog:
a) to document my life
b) to make sure my life in interesting enough to be worth documenting
c) to get my creative writing skills up in the event of my life not being interesting enough to be worth documenting
d) because Carolyn Dodd told me I should and that if no one else would she would read it

So here we go... this is for you Carolyn ;)